It goes - Fast and slow...


The world is analog and we are running in a digital world 
Trying to find steps in a linear life 
With me, what am I trying? 
Trying to find my stand point - in life.
Trying to find an acceptance - a middle path of peaceful co-existence
Fulfilling expectations
Finding my expectations failed and dealing with them 
Finding my peace of mind 
Finding my center of calm
Living each day 
Accepting that the life as it was yesterday, has changed
Dealing with the changes
Dealing with those left behind - caring for them
Being positive 
Trying to live with out expectations 
...
Trying too hard ... I think 
I tell myself -
Simply 'live' .. 
Make it simple 
Make it uncomplicated
But it isn't ... and that reality sinks in every day 
I try to hold on to my sanity and familiarity
Each day, as it changes, I try to savour close what is known..
For now - the only part which is such is my work
Which gives my life a meaning 
An environment which gives me my identity, doesn't question my existence
And when it too becomes too much - a feeling of helplessness comes in 
A question on the reason for my existence comes in 
And however hard I try to avoid that question
It hangs .. in the air .. and increases my uncertainity and the un easiness

Sometimes it goes away, sometimes it persists... and that persistence bothers....

Patience ...Preserve the core ...keep the faith

And It continues...it goes - fast and slow

With its high and low...

Nish

Sep'12

Life revolves round multiple cities - a whirlwind it has become..